day 02

Amaria came and visit last night. It was a really good time chatting with her, and it is somewhat comforting to know that it is normal for families to have their differences.
So my family is not doomed eh.

Anyhow, slept pretty well but was freezing. I slept the whole morning too, after breakfast and before lunch.
I feel quite sad that I am coped up here, no sunshine, no movement... especially when I don't feel sick?

Chris and Jean came to visit.
I am not comfortable with making small chat. I feel weird being the one to be visited... I don't mind familiar people that I can chat with. But I feel bad that people visit me anyways.

Don't know how I managed, but I managed to kill time in the afternoon.

I eat all my meals, it's OK no pressure because I know I am supposedly eating enough.. but I somehow still always seem to feel hungry even after my meals? Sigh.

And somehow, I feel different from the rest of the people. I don't feel like befriending them for now cos' I'm afraid, I don't want to get worse then I already am, or either that I see the root of my problem different.
I don't know what I am thinking or feeling actually.

Just really grateful for Amaria and Chris.. especially Amaria.

Tomorrow I start on the day program.

At the back of my mind, I can't wait for the days to pass faster (and my meal times can come faster cos I feel perpetually hungry?) and also I am thinking of how and when I am going to let my mom know.

Sigh.