day 01

Entered not knowing what it will be like.
Money and cards and medication "confiscated" for safe-keeping.
Body checks, B/P checks.. Q&A.
Protocols and procedures.
Rules to follow in Ward 46.

Now, I am bored.. Should have brought more stuffs to do rather than just my laptop.
Brought my bible and a book but I have no mood to read it?
Will my life change from here?

Frankly, I am very skeptical. Just went for an "interview" and the doctor seems to be retarded.
And I feel pigeonholed.. Like all patients have the same inherent problem.

Why did I even choose to let myself be admitted then huh?
Seriously having big doubts now.

I want to play. I want to go out and run around.. I am already missing my morning runs, or the evenings of playing badminton, rollerblading, playing soccer, frisbee............
and NO, its not cos of my illness I am dreaming of these things.
I just want to be free.

I suddenly feel like I've jumped inside a well.